Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Is this it??

There has got to be more in a marriage then sharing kids and an address. Is this really it ?Should I just sit back and accept that this is as good as it gets? No way I just can't. I've been miserablly sitting by, just f**cking exsisting in hopes that he would see the light, get out from under his puppet master, grow a spine and remember whats important. If this is never going to happen....say la V..But the ass just keeps saying he does want this and does jack diddly squat. The only reaction I can get from him is his constant detachment from me & in truth the family. Yes he spends time with the kids, as a single father he will do fine, he just sucks AS A HUSBAND. I am giving this "US" just 1 more month. I have got myself set up for a job and the paper work is ready for the seperation. I don't want this but I think it's time I start truely enjoying my life, not just exsisting. My beautiful kids are growing so fast and I want to be more active in their daily life, I want to get over being pissed of and taking the back seat in my own life. No more. I am responsiable for my own happiness and I am responsiable for showing my children that their mother can be happy, outgoing and a great example of a women, someone they can trust to be CONSISTANT in everything we do. I want to be someone my children are proud of, cause right now I can't imagine they are.
THIS WILL CHANGE/I WILL MAKE SURE OF IT!!!!!

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